Big Changes & Bigger Questions

IMG_20170810_083004I haven’t written a blog in a long time, partially because I got busier than I could ever imagine planning Texas Dreamin’ 2017 and partially because I felt uninspired. It began to feel like a chore to find exactly 5 things about Salesforce. Anyway, the blog started falling lower and lower on my weekly to-do list until it fell off the list completely. And here we are almost a year since my last post.

But recently I’ve felt inspired to write again but nothing fits the initial “Saasy 5” model of 5 things about Salesforce so I’ve used that as a reason to avoid writing. But maybe that doesn’t really matter, I’ve been inspired to write about this massive change I’m going through in my personal life.

That being said, let me catch you up on some things. I’m pregnant with a little girl! She’s due December 21st and is already rocking our world! My husband and I are blessed beyond measure that the pregnancy has been nothing but healthy and smooth thus far. Our little girl is beautiful, loves to move in my prenatal yoga classes, and is already showing her spunk in ultrasounds.

Side Note:  When we found out we were having a girl one of the first things my husband said was, “We are NOT raising a girl that claims she can’t do math!”

Anyway, this change has brought up all sorts of questions; some of them are new to me and others I’ve considered before, but now they carry weight…

  • What IS a good mother?
  • How will I have time to give myself to her, my husband, my faith, my health, my career, this #Ohana?  List goes on.
  • What does it look like to have career goals now?  Not that becoming a mom prevents me from having goals but my gut tells me its going to look different now.
  • How do other people do it? I’m not like others, but maybe someone has the secret sauce.

All these questions swirling in my head have left me to think that I can’t be the only woman with these thoughts and questions. I began to think about how I approach the unknown in other areas of my life. What do I do when I don’t know the answer to a question about a project or Salesforce? I research, I google, I ask experts. And what do I do when I’m trying to learn a new skill? I practice. I try the techniques I’ve learned about through my research, I ask experts to review my work, and I iterate that until I get it right. So why can’t some of these methods work in this scenario?

I think they can.

So, I’ll be spending some time with mothers. Mothers I respect for different reasons, from different walks of life. I’ll read books and blogs. I’ll share what I learn and once she’s here I’ll practice it.  

And maybe the communities in my life that helped me get here today can help me find my way in this new phase.

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